A special thanks!
G,evening folks,
Firstly, I would like thank you all for your kind words of support.
The last seven weeks of my life have been a nightmare. I have always held the view that taking one’s life (suicide) was the easy way out. I now know firsthand how an individual can fall into the void of total hopeless and despair.
Three weeks ago after my forth operation, I was in tremendous pain and in a serious world of hurt. I did not want my wife and children continuingly seeing me suffering the way I was. If I had access to a firearm then, I would have shot myself.
At that time in my life i have never felt so depressed, lonely and totally incapacitated, even though I have a beautiful wife and two beautiful little girls and a great bunch of friends. I just wanted to end the misery for my family and friends.
My stupid logic was that financially due to my military service pension, superannuation and other benefits that the Army provided me would have set my wife and children a secure future.
So far I have had six operations in seven weeks. This time fingers crossed I am pain free.Once again thanks for your kind words of support.
PS, I have to give a specially mention to both Old Tony and Scotty Bobcat who have kept in contact with my wife during my crisis period and have kept my morale up when I was extremely vulnerable.
Finally, looking forward to catching up with Tony & Helen and others at Coopernook tomorrow.
Regards,
RLI (Paul)